Self Indulgence


Saturday, October 19, 2002
Once again, Blogger has completely fucked things over. Goddamn, why would I ever have decided to use this system... I can't believe I am letting my data live in someone else's database out of sheer laziness. This is especially annoying considering that 1) I have a system set up with MySQL already and 2) I am a DBA by profession.

If I ever build a system this wonky - please - hit me in the arm or something.

My archives are apparently toast. I've got them in a folder on the server, I'll figure out what to do with the content later.

Ugh. Time to start looking for a new system methinks.


Friday, October 18, 2002
Alright, it's done... and a mighty poor job it was... but the site is finally - different. The green had been there for far too long.

Nevermind that I completely stole the layout from a default template for Blogger.

Nevermind that I can't come up with a decent idea for this site some 4 years after buying the domain.

I think maybe I need to go home and drink. Yes, maybe this will help.

You see, tomorrow is my sleep study. I think I have sleep apnea - at least, everyone I know thinks that I have it. Apparently, I snore. If you have ever had to sleep in the same house as me, this is apparently a laughable understatement. Personally, it doesn't bug me as I am not even aware of the fact, but I'm tired of everyone telling me how loud I am, and tired of everyone blaming me for keeping them up with it.

So... the sleep lab. I don't want to go. Not at all, really. The idea of being hooked up to a bunch of sensors and wires in order to relax and fall asleep, all with a technician watching me the whole time. Nope... doesn't sound at all like something that I want to do. I do, however, want this to be fixed, so I really don't have a lot of choice.

I've done a lot of research into this, and it turns out that my being a fatass probably isn't helping. I'm dieting yet again, but I hate that also. I am so sick of not being able to eat what I want - sick of being hungry. I wish it was easier. I wish that I could get a carne asada burrito when I want one - or that I could take Lise out to dinner every night. But - realistically - I can't. I guess I've had my days of eating for pleasure - so now I have to suffer to make up for it. The cosmic balance thing is a fucking bitch.

I'm down to between 255 and 260 lbs, according to whatever scale I am leaning on my tiptoes on... This sounds bad, but I was probably up to around 280 lbs. I'm still trying to stick by my comittment to be 245 lbs by the end of the year, but I haven't lost any weight since July - and I was only down the 15 lbs of the 30 at that point. Still, I guess I should be glad that it hasn't gone up.

I miss regular Dr. Pepper though.

Ok, that's it for now. I'm going to start using this again I think. I've got to talk somewhere...


Goddamn I hate Blogger.


So... Blogger decided to eat my old template. Hence, I've chosen this one - the most plain, unobtrusive thing they had. Unfortunately, now the rest of my site looks wrong, and I've never really gotten around to making it all work. So - you get this. Hope you like it. I don't. But oh well...


I just thought I would take this 15 minute interval to tell everyone out there in Radio land....

Fuck off.